A huge Debt

The money that was supposed to be my rent money vanished, unknown, now i can't pay the rent now i feel like that i have a huge debt, i cried cuz this is not the first time it happened to me, money have been vanishing in my life a lot, i creid thinking why me,i know it's a test of life, and i think that is too harsh, but it's not i would probably get a part time job, and i would get over it,  but right now i can't  handle it's too much,  some people have experienced worse than this,  then why am i complaining?

I am lonely

Ppl were not ment to live alone ,i miss my friends, i miss talking to ppl, i miss the feeling of love, i miss my family, i always wanted to love and be loved back, i like the feeling when i am being appreciated,
I always wanted ppl to see me as someone important in their lives, i always try to avoid the truth, that i don't  need nobody to live, but in reality i always wanted someone to be on my side all the time.  

So annoying m8

Cutting off internet  of my pc like it's  my fault  it's slow, keep every little  bit of bandwidth  for himself *angry 😡 *